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Went to IMM with Dar yesterday.
Saw this Sony Alpha 230.
Tested it out and I kinda' attracted to it.
$54 monthly inst' for 12mths.
1 lense bundle.
3 other items which I can't really re-cap.
$54 per month is NOT a problem to me.
What I need now is credit card.
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Damn fuck-up now.
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I'm actually a very stubborn person.
Things that I want,
I would fight till the end.
I want means I want.
I like to do things fast.
If I want some thing, I would get it either now or next 2 days.
I don't like to drag.
And I kinda hate to hesitate.
Yes means yes.
No means no.
This is 1 hidden point even Dar don't know.
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And if you try to dare me,
you'll be dead in the end.
Cause you might need to pay for the consequences.
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I'm not the type of person whom you can mess with
when I'm fucking furious.
You might get burnt if you do anything funny.
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I'm obviously a good girl gone bad.
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I'm not the Ah Chua you know last time.
The past me doesn't know how to fight for my own rights.
I let people take advantages of me.
I let people climb over my head.
I keep all my anger and unhappiness to myself.
I don't curse.
But not now.
I'm a changed person.
A person whom is more tough now.
How can I not be tough?
I start work at the age of 12!
I've to worry about having not enough money.
There's one time where a guy said that my hands are rough,
I feel sad.
How can my hands not to rough?
Start working in the horrible society at the age of 12...
How can my hand not be rough?
I fight for what I have now.
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Friends and even relatives looked down on me,
because I'm came from a low income family.
So what?
My mum earns $800 per month.
She needs to feed 2 kids and herself.
What do you expect?
Friends asked me out for movie and other stuffs,
they know I can't afford.
I felt damn humiliated.
I remember when I was Sec2.
This particular girl insulted me until I cried.
I learnt to be strong sincce then.
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I hate it when people ask me this
"You got money merhx?"
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I save money for outings and stuffs.
I ate nothing in school for the whole fucking day when
I need to save money.
And I'm gonna save for the next few weeks.
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Remember.
I can be nice.
I can be nasty.
So far no one has seen the dark side of me.
No one has seen the real angry me.
Mama' and Bro' has seen it.
I took glass cups and threw at this fucker.
I took chair and hit this fucker.
I punch and slap this fucker.
I so wanna send this fucker to hell.
Some may know whom I'm referring to and some won't.
It's a long grandmother story.
